At the hospital, after the first check, I was told I had a dilation of about 4 cm, so they took me straight to the birthplace. Shortly after I was admitted, Mrs. Carmen Constantinescu (who has postponed her departure for me) has also come to see mee. She monitored me throughout my pregnancy and was there for me durring the delivery. I thank her for her support and professionalism.
Dragos, has been there with me thoughout delivery. He stayed with me in the delivery room from the very beginning. Yes. He also attended the birth. He stood at my right hand, beside my shoulder. I'm glad he did that, I felt so safe.
In the same room were the midwives, Justina and Loredana. Very nice and kind with me.
The contractions were painful and harder to bear, so I asked the epidural, somewhere around noon. There was a good mood in the room, Europa FM was in the background, we were humming all the songs. The music relaxes me, it gives me a good feeling, so it was exactly the vibe I wanted.
I was consulted by the doctor at every 30 minutes. With the dilation I was standing well, contractions were not constant and effective. I was asked to approve any procedure, but at that moment, I could only do what the Doctor thinks fit. The membranes have been broken by the doctor. After that I waited ... and waited :)
At 3 pm, the epidural effect goes, and pains become unbearable (and I thought I was dealing well with pain - in general) :)).
At 4 pm we begin to "get on with it." I felt the pain through all the pores, but everybody was cherring me and telling me: you got this, you can do it!
It seemed to me that it was never gonna end, and I had a moment of impotence at some point, when I was wondering if I'm going to make it. No way! I must be able to! I pushed for an hour. The midwives helped me, by pushing on my abdomen. The others encouraged and guided me with what I needed to do. The moment that really gave me power was the one in which the doctor told me: we can see his hair!
I had then a feeling hard to describe in words. That gave me so much force that in the next 2 minutes I think (or two pushes), I managed to do the right thing. I felt something magic, something that told me that I should not "pull" the time and bring this angel to the world. It all depended on me in those moments. When I heard him shout, crying, I burst in tears of happiness and joy. I turned my head to Dragos. We were saying so much with a look and a smile.
When they put my baby on my chest, it seemed like a miracle, a blessing, a great feeling. I told him I'm sorry I tormented him a little, but I just waited for him and we love him all over again. I looked at him quickly, to see his face, his boots, his nose, his eyes. It seemed unreal. What a moment! Therefore, on Friday August 31 at 17:00 came our angel, Rareș Alexander, 55 cm, 3,670 kg.
We stayed about 3 hours in the delivery room, then they took me to the salon. I still could not believe it. Like I was in a dream. All I wanted was to see the baby and then eat something :))
We were discharged on Sunday. My mother came and helped us. It made me feel good to have her close for the first week. I do not even know what to share with you because I lived so many emotions at once. It would be too long to post. So I'm leaving something for next week. Time spent with Rareș. The first weeks as a mother. And my recovery :)
One thing is for sure: I look at him, and my heart fills with love! It is the purest feeling I ever lived! It is the most beautiful blessing! I would stop the time!
Love,
AB
